Who were some of your important teachers?
I studied with Jackie Cronsberg when I was 11 at Chautauqua. She had a Balanchine school. And also Gloria Govrin and Sandy Jennings, who is Jackie’s daughter and was a former NYCB corps dancer. Patty McBride taught me at Chautauqua. When I was 11, we saw a video of her dancing and that’s what inspired me to join NYCB. I’d never seen anything like it before and I just knew that’s what I wanted to do. I was a really ambitious little kid. I set my goals really high for myself. I went to Chautauqua for three summers, Suzanne Farrell’s for three summers—they were overlapping—and SAB [School of American Ballet] for one, and they asked me to stay.
What was your experience with Farrell?
I love Suzanne. She gave the hardest class. She did mind-boggling combinations and physically impossible things, and her classes were totally intense: two hours, twice a day. We once did penchées on pointe and a promenade arabesque on pointe in the center. The craziest stuff! It was really fun and kind of impossible.
But that’s how you get stronger.
Yeah! We kept trying all these impossible things. At that time, I was looking at the National Ballet School of Canada and SAB. I had heard good things—that [the former was] more nurturing than SAB. Suzanne encouraged me to go to SAB instead. She said I had a freedom and that I was very Balanchine.
How old were you at SAB?
I was 14 during the summer, and I turned 15 in August, and then I went for the year. The first year was one of the worst of my life. It was so hard emotionally, and I was completely unprepared. I went from being totally precocious and among the best at my school—but more than anything else, it was really hard being away from my parents. I was always close with them, and I was sort of a freakish child where I liked hanging out with grown-ups and I didn’t have any friends my own age. I was really shy and I was truly unhappy at school. I was kind of a dork. Ballet wasn’t really a cool thing to do. It was a great relief when I came to New York and I met all these other girls. It was really a relief. At the same time, I had never used a vacuum before; I didn’t know the basic ways to live on my own. I didn’t get along with my roommate. I had never really chosen food for myself. I ended up feeling really sad and missing home a lot. The first year was rough; but I had the support of family friends that took me under their wing for a couple of years. I used to go to their house and they would feed me a good meal. And I took private lessons with Wilhelm Burmann and Nancy Bielski once a week, so I formed relationships with them also. I studied with them for years, even though it was against the rules, because I was on scholarship. I think working with them has made me the dancer I am today.
That’s an amazing combination of teachers. Don’t they teach at the same time, though?
I used to take Willy, leave early and take the rest of Nancy. They hated that I did that, but I worked privately with each of them also. It was an amazing combination, combined with SAB. It was really hard.
What did they give you?
Like in I Heart Huckabees, one really finishes where the other leaves off. It’s kind of like my parents. They’re so different but together they’re the perfect parent. Nancy and Willy are really funny. I love both of them. Willy is a real sweetie; he has this whole class persona. I used to cry in his private lessons. He was terrifying: “Why can’t you do this?” But it was really effective and he got exactly what he wanted out of me; I would try until I got it right. He wants the extreme out of every dancer—he asks for extreme positions and extreme movements, and what comes out is actually extremely right and beautiful, because people think they’re doing something farther than they actually are. Nancy gives one of the hardest classes. No matter how in shape you are, you take her class and feel out of shape. You go in the middle of the season and you think you’re really fit; there’s something aerobic about her class. Her barre is sometimes really slow and you have to work through your frustration of how slow it is and how hard it is. If you take her class consistently, you will be a stronger, better dancer. I’d say that Willy is more about style, speed and position and Nancy tends to be more about endurance, strength and stamina.
What is the biggest problem at NYCB?
I’d say that my biggest gripe is that they’re not utilizing the best choreographers. I think a lot of people have a problem with that. My boyfriend and I often go to Cedar Lake and it’s our favorite company to watch—their dancers are incredible, from Juilliard and Hubbard Street, and we’re friends with a lot of them, but also they have the world’s most innovative choreographers. I wish that Peter would allow that. I think a lot of dancers feel that way.
What choreographers have stood out to you from Cedar Lake?
Crystal Pite and Ohad Naharin.
How do you feel about coaching at NYCB?
For the corps, there is not any unless you do a featured role. It’s usually a catch-22. How do you improve if you don’t have any coaching? I just got into a cycle of frustration. I would do Pilates and work on my own—core strength was always my biggest weakness. I’m overly limber and floppy. So whenever I felt like I got to a real powerful place, I would expect the parts to follow and then my frustration would grow and I would be like, Why am I kicking my butt if nothing’s happening? It seemed like an endless cycle for years. A lot of people are frustrated.
You joined NYCB in 2000. What have you been able to dance that you were happy about?
The first thing that comes to mind was Vespro by Mauro Bigonzetti. It was just great to work with an innovative choreographer and something different, and I felt pushed, and at first I felt really shy working with him and not quite ready for it, but I felt like he brought a new energy out of me. It was just really exciting. Other than that, I kept getting cast in very classical ballets. I told Peter once, “I’m really interested in more neoclassical, edgier things.” The Cage is one of my favorite ballets. I like The Four T’s. I’m interested in odd positions. I feel in classical ballet you can only go so far.
Did you consider joining Cedar Lake? Or even going to Italy to work with Bigonzetti or another European company?
I thought about Cedar Lake. It would be really difficult having only done Balanchine and never having any modern training. People do it. I would have had to work really hard, and I just think I wasn’t willing to do that kind of work. And I love New York and never seriously thought about moving.
EXCLUSIVE VIDEO Backstage at Sophie Flack's last show
Sophie, this comment is coming rather late in the day, but -- thank you for your extraordinary honesty about an incredibly painful situation. May wonderful new experiences come your way -- I know they will.
How brave of you, Sophie, To "out" the inner world of NYC Ballet and the concentrated pursuit of a career as a professional ballet dancer. Having recently read an interview with the former ABT dancer-who now has a featured role in FINIAN'S RAINBOW on Broadway-I was struck by quite a few similarities in content shared by both ladies-being referred to as "kids"; the lack of any orientation, so to speak, to assist the average teenager who is hired for a company, to deal with the "world" of ballet.
Best of luck to you Sophie in the new phase of your life. NYCB might have been your dream, but there are hundreds of wonderful companies in the US that would love to have you as a dancer!
This person sounds like a child. She exhibits a pouty piece of art instead of effective behavior. She's twenty-five, which has always been a maturity divide, but she comes off as a privileged teen.
my daughter had the same thing happen in another ballet company!(laid off) she too was deeply hurt. her self esteem was trashed! she pulled herself up and she auditioned (her biggest fear was... that they were correct...and she is not "strong enough"). they were wrong. much interest was generated from a couple of the biggest companies in the country! and she found work.
i think the article in the new york times spelled out the emotions of ballet dancers really well. miami city ballet pulled the same thing letting go of 8 dancers and hiring apprentices! the dancers received their notices in the mail!
Sophie,I have waited years to have someone talk about what goes on in that building.Being an ex City Ballet dancer myself Iknow what you say is true,only there is so much more that went on and continues to do so.I quit one day because I couldn't take the verbal and physical abuse anymore.Peter is a disgusting example of a human being and shame on the board for covering up all his crimes.When will someone stop the maddness...
No true dancer could read your interview and see the video without weeping with you. Best of luck Sophie. You have it all and more is in store for you.
I deeply admire this woman's courage and spirit. Thank you for your art, Sophie.
How about starting a dance school?
OK...one door closes, another one opens. If you truly want to keep dancing, NYCB isn't the only excelent co. in the world, not even the only excellent Balanchine co. in the country. If you choose not to leave NYC, that's part of your choice. You aren't so old that you couldn't give contemporary ballet a go, a la Cedar Lake, tho I don't agree about their coreorgraphers. Artists & management rarely see eye to eye, so second guessing doesn't help. You have an opportunity here...use it wisely.
I understand your frustration, Sophie, but don't burn bridges...
Good for you Sophie. My years from 5 years old to 18 was a little similar to yours. I made a conscious decision at 18 to stop ballet (was one of the hardest decisions I had to make at that point in my life). I wanted to pursue an education b/c I knew deep in my heart that the ballet world that I fell in love with as a young girl was not the ballet world as a profession. I saw the red flags very early. You seem like a very talented woman and you will be just fine! Cherish the good memories!
You go girl! I really admire your courage and the strength in which you've handled yourself. I've heard that 15 dancers left NYCB...incredible! But you don't have to worry...You'll rock in wherever life takes you!
What a wonderful interview. I had a recent experience similar to Sophie (I was not laid off in such terms) and for a much smaller company, but many of the emotions, fears and frustrations are 100% the same. It is scary leaving any job for any reason, but being a dancer and the passions that come with it can really mess with your head. Thank you for this article!
Reading the last comment, I'm only left to think that you are taking out your issues on Sophie. Sophie: you have an amazing heart. Never stop believing in yourself.....
You want people to take you seriously in this article yet you make a video or yourself kissing a sponge? Sounds to me like you never really let go of Mom's hand and walked down the stairs to the gym.
let's get this straight: you don't wanna be reffered to as a kid but you paint pissed off portraits with neon and sparkles. You're interested in edgier dance yet you only ever optionally trained with classical teachers.This is all you ever wanted yet you're giving up because of a simple lay-off instead of auditioning elsewhere. You wanted more roles yet, in your meeting with Peter you couldn't even believe in yourself enough to say it in a non "whimpery" voice. con't...
Fellow ballet dancer here.....and it appears that you were too MUCH of an artist to be in a place that wanted you to be this "robot". Things are a blessing in disguise sometimes and you never now whats possible in this dance life of yours. Keep going. Get your degree and keep reaching. You have a voice and maybe its actually time that you go out and find people who will help you express that. Good Luck!
Bravo, Sophie - happy graduation!
As a total outsider reading this interview, my first thought is, why don't you go dance for another company? You're biggest complaint w/NYCB is that they should try different choreography. So why don't you do that somewhere else since NYCB is no longer an option now? You obviously have the talent, and if dance is all you ever wanted, does it really have to be NYCB or nothing? It seems like you still have so much more to offer the dance world at large.
You absolutely will be missed, Sophie; you have been a delight onstage. And thank you for your courage in this interview. I've been watching NYCB for 30+ years, and this layoff upset and angered me. I too am distressed that the company did not try other options. And if none were viable, why cut only from the corps, the hardest working and least paid? It seems unfair, unwise and unprofessional; we all could have expected better. The best of luck to you, Ms. Sophie Flack.
Really interesting and honest and heartfelt. I congratulate Sophie for her wisdom, courage, and artistry. I hope we'll be seeing alot more of sophie's artistic endeavors in the near future.
Lovely video--lots of great detail--nice quiet story. Thanks Time Out and thanks Sophie Flack...